So, last year I believed I would be married next week...

I finally voiced that, out loud for the first time to anyone but you

It looks so naive, so foolish now... to believe. 

But I think some time I'll be healing

That aside... I'm starting to stop blaming everything but you for why you left.

You left me because you wanted to.

If someone wants something they won't look for an excuse

From now on...

I don't blame my  best friend 

I don't blame your best friend

I don't blame my Grandmother

I don't blame my Brother 

I don't blame my Father

I don't blame your Mother 

& I won't blame your Father

No matter what the circumstances surrounding us

No matter what the people surrounding us said or did

No matter if I made mistakes, was afraid and unsure

No matter what your reasons where... and I may never know

One thing I do know, you chose to make your choice

No outside circumstances can, at the end of the day 

be the thing we turn to when we need something to blame

No matter if every world we've known falls down around us

Even in the midst of this, we make the choice 

For commitment or freedom

Love of someone else or love of self

To stay or to walk away

This may cure me, finally seeing, nothing else is to blame

for your words, 

for your actions

for your choice

We just use those things we blame 

to work towards the escape we had planned anyway