redemption or something in the morning

I mostly just want to be free again, 
to wake in the morning and not feel
like I should have done something different
I want regret to have moved to Nashville
and I want the future to be here
I'm not trying to rush things
But I'm ready to stop rehashing
the past and it's products
however it turns out from here


All I want is in the morning
to wake up and know that I'm alive
to feel like I've been praying enough 
that God knows my heart & mind
and that I know my own self 
and that someday someone else will too
and love me for it, unselfishly
once I learn to be unselfish.
once I learn to be less selfish. It's slow work

All those sacred things you left me
Boy I just went out and burned them
in my backyard with a torch
two torches made of background and medium
It didn't heal my pain, it didn't cleanse my palette
We wrote too much, that's why we knew too much
I never meant to hurt you, you never meant to help me
And neither one of us knew the costs of being selfless